yes or no

Tracey?

Erin?

Ash??

Allie still waiting on baby! Do any of you like these figures?

Love, Aunt Ang

Letting go is hard to do.......

Not wanting to let go of summer and say hello to fall. I really like the temps but miss the flowers of summer!

For those of you interested in my medical update read my next blog...................................

Don't ya think????

Seriously, don't ya think that if you worked with patients up front and in their face , you would practice Great Oral Hygiene???????

Well that was obviously not part of this Nurses orientation! It was horrid t0 start with and then she shuts me in the 10x10 room with her! Not Pretty!!!

While we were released to the waiting area Robin noticed this really cute picture-I had to look really hard!

The news today at the Cornea Specalist was not all that great, to say the least. I will sum it up in her words:
*Detrimental
*Very thin spot in Cornea that can rupture or become a hole anytime
*Took 6 cultures (results tomorrow)
*Placed a clear contact to help protect the eye ( it dried up and came out before I got home)
*Worried about bacteria and infection
*Eye not Healing
*Would not take any vacation until eye is stabalized
*No patch, warm area to breed bacteria
*Vision will not be regained
*Placed on 2 antibiotics
*Will refer with Dr. Perry tonight and will schedule a total closing of the eye

I believe I have been in better Spirits! Continue to PRAY

Much Love To All

I am at a loss for..............

No not words...................... but obviously MY HAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes, I am really sad. I do not have much hair to start with and now I have LESS. I thought maybe I got through radiation with out losing any, but guess not.

It has not been a good week-end, I have felt sick to my stomache and have had a head ache and the runs. OK that was probably TMI.

Well, I know there have to be better days ahead. God has brought me this far:)

Much Love To All

Update on me and then Happy Eighty

Ok.....So this will be the new picture style when necessary. I will be holding up the rest of my face like this. I think I can handle that look, at least I look like I am somewhat smiling:0

Now to some more interesting news. Today was our Moms 80th Birthday. We all take turns getting my mothers supper and today happened to be my sister Robins Day. She arranged to have Party on the Porch. I am going to post some pictures for your viewing pleasure.

It was a day like today and the sign was in place before her feet even hit the floor
And then another one................................................


And what Party on the Porch is complete without A Banister Buffet: Sloppy Joes, Hot Dogs, Chips and pop! mmm,mmm,mmmmmmmmmmm
Then we had the traditional Birthday Cake-well maybe not so traditional-it did say Happy 80th Birthday! LOL



There were also some very important guest!

Her Grand-daughter Liz
Her Great-Grand-daughter Faith

And did I mention we gat a new car?

Much Love to all!

Surgery Party and Dancing with the Stars!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, for those of you wondering I now have 30% of my eye closed. This procedure is to help protect the eye. All doctors so far have been in agreement about the regained vision in my eye-they do not believe that will happen.

I will be seeing a Cornea specialist on the 29th and she will determine if it is closed enough or maybe needs to be closed more. I went through the surgery awake since I am paralyzed there anyway. I had no idea what to expect, but this looks like an eye, but smaller!

Sooo it was a very long day and by the time I came home I was exhausted and having to Ice my eye and put medicine, blah blah blah. I was to be the host home for the Opening Season Premier of DANCING WITH THE STARS. I decided why not?

The girls all showed up at once-that would be my sister and two of my friends and my husband and I. I am glad I went through with it. We had alot of fun together and the two hours went by very fast. I fell asleep in my chair around 10pm and I believe it was around 12am that I woke up and Merry and Karen were still here and they even cleaned up the dishes. It is very hard for me to let others serve, but it was nice and I appreciated it.

They arrived with and Ice Cream Cake, Balloons, Cereal, Bean Pot, Ice cream, Kettle Corn, and an Angel. Yes they did that for me and they actually surprised me!!!!!

These are the girls showing me some sympathy for my eye surgery!
Pam wanted a picture with here eyes OPEN, because when she smiles here eyes disappear, but she is just darn cute!
And this is my hourly icing for 15 minutes an hour!
Well I guess that will be all for now! THANKS GIRLS!

To all much love!

No More Radiation (woo-hoo)

Well, finally Thursday came and went. It was my last treatment and trip up to see the Doctor. It felt so good not to have to get up and go to the CCF on Friday. I actually slept in a little and then spent some time at my mom and dads. I really feel they just got used to me being around at least once a day and all through my treatments that just did not happen. I stayed there a while, went to the bank and then home. Randy had gotten off work, so we took the Convertible over to Ever Green Green House and bought some Mums. I sat down for a little bit and then started puttsing around in the garage. The nurse at my last visit expressed to me, that REST is very important for the next 3-4 weeks. I will try to make that happen but it feels so good to be home! In ither news they have me set for December 19th for my followup MRI to see just what took place these last 30 days. The Doctors have been well on there way and now we are trusting God for the rest! We do know however He can do it all!

Monday at 11 they will be closing my right eye until May, let us continuing praying for that situation.

The following are pictures of the mask I had to wear each treament....They send it home with you as a Souvenir??????????????

As For Now

Much Love

Are you CHICKEN??????????

Come on..................You can tell your story with out giving your identity you know! I know there are many more stories out there:)

Robin

This is a tribute to my sister Robin. I cannot express in mere words what she means to me. She is my favorite sister. I couldn't have asked for a more perfect one. I just wanted everyone out there to know, that if I were able to choose anyone in the world to be my sister, I would choose her! I love you Robin!

CONTROL!

Aren't we cute? I'm on the left, Angela is on the right. I always loved that afghan. It had every color imaginable in it. I always loved to look at it. It was most definitely eye candy!

This picture is of: Me on the left, Angela in the middle, and our sister Cindy on the right. Now it looks as though I am holding her hand, but I was actually blocking an attempt of hers to try and punch me in the face!

This picture proves who is the smartest one. Gee ladies, it looks like you might have a problem with the sun! I guess I should have worn sunglasses that day...oh wait, I did!

Yeah, the cutie patootie on the far left is Miss Angela! Then our cousins Kim and Crystal, followed by Moi and our mom. I'm sure mom was looking down at Angela to make sure she wasn't in distress for too long. (Do I sound like I have sibling jealousy issues?)

Well, I am Angela's sister Robin, and I have control of her blog! Muah ha ha! She's allowing me to have control because I am constantly telling her she has "control" issues. I guess this is her last ditch effort to hide the ugly truth. She is a CONTROL FREAK!

On a more serious note, I must first say that tomorrow will be her last radiation treatment, and for that we are very thankful! She has been through so much, and yet, she never troubles anyone about it. She is the same old Ang to us. I spoke with a lady today who put it perfectly. She said, "Angela exudes so much personality, that you don't really notice any of the physical things she is going through, because so much of who she is, is her inner self and that's what ultimately shines through, and you see her the same as you always have." That's really true. I could never quite put it into words, but Esther did.

Now, on to more unpleasant business. I am going to tell you what it is like to go to radiation with Angela on Tuesdays. Tuesday was my day to drive, because that is the day she would see the doctor. She thought it would be good to have me there to listen to what the doctor had to say. Well, well, well, that wasn't really necessary. Why, you ask? I'll tell you why! It is mainly because the doctor doesn't get to speak. He barely sits down in his chair and Ang is saying, "well, I saw the doctor about my eye, and we are going to have it sewn shut on Monday and that will remain that way until March and then we'll discuss what is going to happen from there." (I'm sure he's thinking, thank you for that Angela, I probably would have gotten around to asking about it, once I actually sat down.) Well, let me finish the rest by typing in a he said, she said manner.

"has everything been going okay?"

"well, I just have this sweating issue, see, my hair is soaking wet, I don't know why I sweat all the time, well I do know that you said it's probably because of the steroids, so there is nothing I can do about that, so I'll just have to deal with it, so other than that, I don't think so. What are we going to do with the medicine, now that my treatments will end on Thursday?" Before he can answer, she says, "I'm supposing I will wean off of them, since I'm no longer having radiation."

"yes, Angela, that's right, we'll be weaning you off of them"

"okay, that's what I thought, and how would you like me to go about that?" (oh, maybe if he could get a word in, he will tell you)

"umm, (he is trying not to grin, since he's the doctor, and angela has had control from the get go) well, take one pill every other day to start off with."

"ok, and what do you want to do about my follow up? will I be seeing you before 3 months, or will I just wait until that time is up?" he starts to speak...she continues "because I'll tell you what concerns me, I want to make sure there are no other tumors growing"

"yes, that is a legitimate concern, but it really won't (interruption)"

"yes, I know, it really won't do any good because there will still be swelling, so you really won't be able to tell anything from an MRI before that"

"yes, Angela"

"okay, Dr. Chow, is there anything else I need to be doing"

"umm, no I think things have gone pretty well"

"ok, then, thank you Dr. Chow (as she is getting up ahead of him, I suppose to let him know the office visit is over)

He shakes her hand while being prodded out the door like he's in a cattle call.

He is amused with this feisty lady who is bossing him around.

I just smile and nod goodbye. I didn't know if I should apologize or ask him to pay Angela for the visit! All in all......ENTERTAINING!

But, that's what makes Angela, Angela. She has alot of spunk and ambition, which I believe is what keeps her going where others would have given up. It also makes her fun to be around, even in such a serious situation as this one. We are blessed to know her, even if we want to "restrain" her at times! I LOVE YOU SISTER!

And now, I would like to invite all of you to share your "Angela is in Control" moments by posting them as comments to this blog entry! Then...maybe, just maybe, we will hear these words: "hello, I am Angela, and I am a control freak" It will be an online "intervention". LOL

Well Sew Me Eye Shut!

Well Everyone, I went to me Eye Specialist today, and Dr.Perry said "Let's Just Sew The Thing Shut"

It appears that NO Moisture, No Regular Eye Closure, and No Feeling have created a not so real pretty situation for my Right Eye. They are going to close it this coming Monday and will keep it closed untl sometime in May. This will be about a year after my last surgery.

Is it what I want? NOT

The Doctors main concern right now is just trying to save what I have left in that eye. He said the eye is heavily scratched and dry and therfore damaged.

The long term plan is not settled, they will wait until my face finishes drooping.

As For Now

Much Love

Winds, Cereal and Sweats Oh My

Well I know it is not the Hurricane but it has been some mighty strong winds today, and might I mention they have been HOT winds, YUCK! I like this time of year for the cooler temperatures not 88.5 degrees and hot winds. I am ready for the cool down.

I have not felt well at all for the record today. I have been really off balance and kind of sick to my stomache. The real big problem I have had today are those nasty, I repeat Nasty head sweats, well today they were all over sweats. Any part of my body touching something else just created a drenching affect!

So, since my radiation has started my love for Ceral has increased more than ever. I can eat cereal for every meal. I seem to accomodate cool food better than hot. I am sure the milk helps with coating my stomache since the Decadron I am taking for my swelling they say is very rough on your tummy!

I know this looks real healthy and if you are against sugared cereals, just close your eyes right now. I am normally a Cheerio and Rice Krispie eater, but I stopped at Marc's one day last week, and what can I say:"This was on sale"

Luckily for me I am maintaining my weight even on this steroid, but I know it will not last forever.

Not feeling well so I will go for now. Much love.

4 more

9-12-08

I know it has been a couple of days, but just feeling pretty tired! Treatment has been going about the same, I have been coming home feeling pretty exhausted, but guess what? After the treatment today- I ONLY HAVE 4 MORE. Overall the 30 sessions went all alot faster than I anticipated. It will be so nice to wake up next Friday and NOT have to go to Cleveland. My treatments will continue to work for 2-3 weeks after my radiaition. They will not be taking another MRI until December. So I am having my eye focused on Monday before my radiation. It sounds like I will finally have some down time before December. Randy and I have tried to go away like for a weekend but I have always been battling this Braon Tumor so I hope I can plan something! Well let us see how today goes!
Much Love

To be made or un-made

Well today was an O.K. day. Marie was as usual my Monday Driver, however I do not know what she was actually thinking. All I know is that she was on all kind of backroads and eventually got herself confused and it toolk 10:20 to 12:36 to get to me treatment!

But anyway, as I was getting ready this morning, I had made the bed it was a a chilly 58 degrees!!

So I went to take my shower and when I returned my bed was unmade and there was 2 dogs in the middle of the covers;>)

Not fast enough to photo the dogs:(

See the Doctor tomorrow- Please pray for my eye- I have no vision right now in that eye!

Much Love

Saturday-Hobby Day

I will take one of these please!!!!!!!!!! Oh and yes if you want to offer a Combo Deal I will take the Turqoise one as well. This is a 1959 Corvette and the one next to it was a 1958 Chevy Impala.

Just Dreaming!

These were cars that were on display at the Hobby Day our church was holding with the Lutheran Church. There were alot of Vintage Cars and some other hobbys displayed. The event was used as a Community outreach, they had Testimonies and Singing going on as well. Randy displayed his work in progress (1966 Ranchero) hopefully someday it will be complete. I was asked to share through testimony and song, I did, and hoped it was a witness to someone.

I felt fairly well today but would ask you to pray for the vision in my right eye. Today I have no vision in that eye, only light, and the eye is very red and inflamed.

Thank You and Much Love

WOW, that will sum it up!

Well, Well, Well

Last night 9-4-08 I attended radiation at 4pm at at Tower City for Supper and yes, that is right, don't even be jealous- I went to the American Idol Tour Concert at 7pm!

Just imagine sitting in an Arena that holds up to 14,000 people and the floor literally vibarating from the music. Then suddenly raising up out of the floor sitting at your piano and just singing like a pro! Thats my little David Archuletta. He was the reason I was really there. David Cook that Idol guy, he was OK but it was Archuletta as to why I was there.

My friends Merry, Pam and my sister Karen all together this last season every Idol night-and decided to go to the concert. I am so glad we went, I believe we all enjoyed ourselves! My health conditions were pretty good, besides being very hot from steroids, I considered that very minor.

All the performers were great- however there are some that just dont trip my trigger-that would have been Carly and Ramielle.

And there was David Archuletta, have I mentioned him???????????

You can imagine how mad I just was, when I read you can not have cameras, yea well I will know the truth next time.

Well I went to treatment #21 today-yea thats right back to Cleveland. Hey- 9 more to go!

Woo-hoo-woo-hoo-woo-hoo-woo-hoo-woo-hoo-woo-hoo-woo-hoo-woo-hoo-woo-hoo-woo-hoo

By the way Emily-great performance by Michael Johns

sarrrr-ry

First, just thought I would share a Picture of my Tweety that my sister drew an incision on, I just think he is to cute to throw away. Besides the fact he is now getting old and just could be an antique!!

I apologize for not updating, but I have not been feeling well.

I did not have a treatment on Labor Day, but had one yesterday and saw the Doctor. I waltzed in with my list from Friday Afternoon on as to how I was feeling all weekend. The list included the following: Jittery, Temp of 100.3, Blood Pressure, Pulse, and Blood Sugar as well as Head Pressure and Massive Head Sweats. I saw the girl that weighs you and no change there (woo-hoo) then my radiation nurse and then Dr. Sui.

Well to make a long story short- They are side effects of the steroid-Decadron and I just have to live with it! They will not do away with the steroid because of the brain swelling. Lucky Me! So I am really trying to rest alot, hoping I feel better for my American Idol Concert!

I left feeling unsatisfied- Robin informed me that thats not how I should feel:(

Much Love